Friday, June 25, 2010
♥ Rantings on the Boom
I hate it when someone gives me hope and then just BOOM, destroy it for me the next second. Don't play with my feelings, man. Imagine being at the top of the moon and then the next second BOOM, you're back down to miserable Earth. BOOM BOOM BOOM shattered.
When I was 11 years old, my school was organizing a field trip to Pudu Jail and everyone was so excited including me! I always wanted to know what's inside. So freaking curious. But we all need to get our parents' signature to get permission to go for the field trip. And BOOM, they said no. They said it was dirty and "dirty". Nearly the whole school went ok except me! I even cried for it.
Whenever I talked about ghosts and stuff like that they tell me they don't exist. So, why the excuse "dirty"? So contradicting. And some people till today are telling me..
"Oh there's nothing to see one lah..."
"Very smelly one..."
"You can just Google it or view pictures to know what's in there if you're so curious!"
So why are you going for a holiday to see what is there on the other side of the world? You can just Google it.. Or wait for someone to post up pictures about it then you'll know how it's like to be there. wtf. Looking at Bora Bora or Maldives pictures don't make you feel you wanna go there? It's enough for you just to stare at the photo? Then keep staring at it cos it ain't bringing you no where.
Obviously I want to experience it myself. At least I want to smell the smelly smell myself so I can tell people I smelled the smelly Pudu Jail before hahaha
Anyway the Pudu Jail is not here anymore.. Ish.. I'm gonna miss staring at this place whenever I passed by it.
Another BOOM thing is empty promises. All my life, I get this a lot. Empty promises. People would tell me all the nicest things in the world and in the end they just take it back. Yes, I am naive to believe it everytime as well. Everysinglefreakingtime. Sigh.
Why can't you just do whatever you said you will do? Sometimes they don't even make an effort to keep the promise and that is just even more disappointing. Do you like it if I keep disappointing you? How would that made you feel? Sometimes, do step in my heels to think about it. I think up till today, I am very patient with the people around me. I really don't know when I'll just blow up and fuck this shit.
I am definitely not an extrovert person. Most probably an introvert. I don't like the idea of sharing my thoughts or feelings since I was young. Many people told me that it is bad to be always keeping things inside and not expressing it out.
I guess this is one of the reason to have this blog. To be honest, I feel much better whenever I write what I feel here. At least if I was crying nobody is here to watch, yet my feelings are poured out.
Just that the thought of who's reading it scares me.. lol
xoxo.
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