Wednesday, June 30, 2010
♥ Try To Remember
Try to remember
The kind of September
When life was slow
And all so mellow
Try to remember
The kind of September
When grass was green
And grain was yellow
Try to remember
The kind of September
When you were a tender
And callow fellow
Try to remember
And if you remember
Then follow, follow,
Follow.
1:50 AM
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
♥ A or B? Or Plain Clueless?
I need a haircut............................. But I don't know how to cut it....
I mean I don't know what to tell the stylist on how to cut my hair. Sigh. I don't suit long hair therefore short hair is my only option. BUT I hate having TOO short hair because it would make me look like a boy. wtf. And I will cry for days if my hair is too short. True story.
I love the Pixie haircut Victoria Beckham and Agyness Deyn has but it's too short.. My hair is becoming unfreakingmanageable. I need an answer to my hair asap. Last option is to just cut it short with the same style.
Midterms is this week. American Civilization is a killer. 13 chapters just for midterm. fml. And it's taking forever for me to read one chapter. I need luck! No, I just need motivation to read them all. Sigh. Oh not forgetting Statistics. wtf wtf.
x o x o.
7:06 PM
Friday, June 25, 2010
♥ Rantings on the Boom
I hate it when someone gives me hope and then just BOOM, destroy it for me the next second. Don't play with my feelings, man. Imagine being at the top of the moon and then the next second BOOM, you're back down to miserable Earth. BOOM BOOM BOOM shattered.
When I was 11 years old, my school was organizing a field trip to Pudu Jail and everyone was so excited including me! I always wanted to know what's inside. So freaking curious. But we all need to get our parents' signature to get permission to go for the field trip. And BOOM, they said no. They said it was dirty and "dirty". Nearly the whole school went ok except me! I even cried for it.
Whenever I talked about ghosts and stuff like that they tell me they don't exist. So, why the excuse "dirty"? So contradicting. And some people till today are telling me..
"Oh there's nothing to see one lah..."
"Very smelly one..."
"You can just Google it or view pictures to know what's in there if you're so curious!"
So why are you going for a holiday to see what is there on the other side of the world? You can just Google it.. Or wait for someone to post up pictures about it then you'll know how it's like to be there. wtf. Looking at Bora Bora or Maldives pictures don't make you feel you wanna go there? It's enough for you just to stare at the photo? Then keep staring at it cos it ain't bringing you no where.
Obviously I want to experience it myself. At least I want to smell the smelly smell myself so I can tell people I smelled the smelly Pudu Jail before hahaha
Anyway the Pudu Jail is not here anymore.. Ish.. I'm gonna miss staring at this place whenever I passed by it.
Another BOOM thing is empty promises. All my life, I get this a lot. Empty promises. People would tell me all the nicest things in the world and in the end they just take it back. Yes, I am naive to believe it everytime as well. Everysinglefreakingtime. Sigh.
Why can't you just do whatever you said you will do? Sometimes they don't even make an effort to keep the promise and that is just even more disappointing. Do you like it if I keep disappointing you? How would that made you feel? Sometimes, do step in my heels to think about it. I think up till today, I am very patient with the people around me. I really don't know when I'll just blow up and fuck this shit.
I am definitely not an extrovert person. Most probably an introvert. I don't like the idea of sharing my thoughts or feelings since I was young. Many people told me that it is bad to be always keeping things inside and not expressing it out.
I guess this is one of the reason to have this blog. To be honest, I feel much better whenever I write what I feel here. At least if I was crying nobody is here to watch, yet my feelings are poured out.
Just that the thought of who's reading it scares me.. lol
xoxo.
12:00 AM
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
♥ You Shall Be Burn
The more I think about it, the more it pisses me off... Men AND Women who cheats.
I remember right after I started blogging (which was exactly one year ago), I wrote a piece on Why Men Cheat.. When I wrote it, I wrote it with humour. Maybe because I was not very aware of the whole scenario and writing it just to entertain myself because I found some funny pictures with it.
Now, moving to another year, 365 days later, I'm going to write about nearly the same shit but with different feelings towards it. Cheaters should be burned! Tortured and then die cruelly. That's how I feel. And obviously I'm not talking about cheating in exams -.-
Cheating is an act of LYING, DECEPTION, FRAUD, TRICKERY, IMPOSTURE, AND IMPOSITION.
In relationships, couples obviously expect to have sexual monogamy of each other. So why the fuck do you cheat? Too itchy backside nothing to do is it? Cheat doesn't mean you have to be sleeping around but if you lie, it is considered cheating as well.
Been listening to some of my friends' stories that their bf/gf been cheating on them. Yes, even girls now cheat when we used to think only men cheat. So far this year, I've heard like four cheating stories from my friends! At this very moment, one of my friend actually forgive his girlfriend for cheating on him. Sigh. Ok, maybe she deserved a second chance.... I really don't know. Listening to their stories make me want to teach all the cheaters a lesson. Grr. I just hate it when my friends are getting cheated or lied.
Some people just do not appreciate what is there in front of their eyes. When it is right there, they take it for granted. When it's gone, they start to realize their loss and wants to get it back. It's too late man. So why can't you appreciate it when its yours and only yours? Are you that desperate for other women's attention? Does it feed your ego? What and how it made you feel? Did it make you feel like a hero?
Most people cheat because they thought they could get away with it.
Are you sure? I always believe the truth will always come out, although it hurts.
Worse is those men who do all the sweet talking to a woman when she is at her weakest point (after a break up from her ex bf or something). He is therefore taking advantage of you and trying his goddamn luck to get into your pants.
One thing about men is when they have power (successful with lots of money) they would tend to cheat. Examples? John Edward, Bill Clinton, Ashley Cole (who had the HOTTEST WIFE! I even had a girl crush on her!), Tiger Woods.... just to name a few.
So sometimes you wonder.. Why do some smart and successful men would do such risky things? Dr. Sari Locker, a sex educator and psychologist, once said in a TV show that "First of all, they want sex from someone other than their wife. They want what they're not getting at home. Often, it's very specific types of sex that they want. But it's also (that) they think they can get away with it. There's no emotional connection." So sometimes it's not the wife/women's fault but these men who have itchy dicks. Zzz.
To make it simple, they just got bored with Chinese food, and wanted to try something exotic like Mexican food for a change. But you'll know deep down inside his heart, he will always love Chinese food but once in a while he wants to try something new. And at the end of the day, he would never miss the chance of coming home to you for some Chinese food.
To think of it, I think some men cheat because they have a weakness of character. There can be millions of reasons for you to cheat, but I know some men won't because they respect their promises and vows for each other. I, therefore, respect these men and look up to them.
I was reading an article where people were discussing about the interview John Edwards did on ABC's Nightline where he publicly revealed that he had an affair and he wanted to explain about his actions for doing so.
"I grew up as a small town boy in North Carolina. And I came from nothing, worked very hard, dreamed that I'd be able to do something hopeful and helpful to other people with my life. I became a lawyer. Through a lot of work and success, I gained some acclaim as a lawyer. People were telling me, 'Oh you're such a great person, such a great lawyer, such a talent. You're gonna go—there's no telling what you'll do.' And this was when I was 30, 31 years old. Then I went from being a senator— young senator—to being considered for vice president, running for president, being a vice presidential candidate, becoming a national public figure. All of which fed a self-focus, an egotism, a narcissism that leads you to believe that, that you can do whatever you want. You're invincible. And there will be no consequences."
So to paraphrase it.....
"I used to be poor. Then I got rich and important. Then I thought I was so awesome that not only did I deserve to sleep with another woman, I also thought I wouldn't get caught. So I did it."
Such bullshit. I believe if you cheat, you already planned and know you are going to cheat and there is no excuse or reason to cover your backside.
Ok enough anger rantings. I need to breathe now. Needed to get this out of my system.
No xoxo for you cheaters out there! Karma!
p.s//Be strong, you! :) Time will definitely heal everything! Like the saying, there are millions of fishes in the sea. I believe you will find your other half somewhere out in the sea soon.. : D
p.ps//wow let's hope I don't cheat.. hahahaha what an emotional post. lol
1:39 AM
Monday, June 21, 2010
♥ Happy 1st Birthday
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to YOU,
Happy.... Birthday.... To... You....
Will try to continue updating you more.
Happy Birthday lovestarmagic.
11:53 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2010
♥ One Day
Few days ago, teman-ed Clairebear to her interview.. She wanted someone to accompany her and since I had nothing to do on that day I followed. It's all the way in Mont Kiara, some Dutamas place..
The office is in a VERY new building.. Constructions are still going on.. When I was there I met a lot of rich tai tais having their lunch there. They were all so dressed up.. In flowery gowns and hair nicely permed.. I guess they should be living in the area.. Looking at the area made me want to live there as well.. Kiara Ville sounds like an awesome place to stay haha The condos looks awesome too! I wanna live there too! hahaha
I did something quite embarrassing.. Not gonna elaborate here but I'm sorry Claire! For asking you "How?" LOL
On the same day I collected this!
Suppose to be collecting two of it but when I was at the music store, the guy intro-ed to me Dragon Rider.. zzz So of course I bought it as well.. Sigh. But is all WORTH IT (: I hope! Some people don't understand why I am collecting them and not even opening them. Don't ask. I don't even know as well. Hmm, this reminds me of something I am reading recently.... Ok nevermind.
After collecting the goodies, Claire brought me to Otak-Otak Place.. A nice place to reminisce about childhood memories (: Because they have so many childhood games there! Back to when I was standard 5-6 hehe
They were all in a jar.. They have the guli, rubberband ropes, pick-up sticks and so many more.. I didn't take any pictures of it because we were sitting a bit far and awkward for me to be taking pictures there.. They even have the card games I used to play a LOT! Like this one! I loved playing this card game..
They used to sell it in my primary school bookshop.. If I'm not wrong, they had Old Maid, something Donkey, and Happy Family! Ahh, I miss those games.... ):
Had their otak--otak too which is PRETTY SMALL....
Gossip-gossip then we went for a lil shopping then head home.. One full day of satisfaction! Quite tiring.. Think I'm getting old.. Going for classes is like a chore too..
Something off topic, since last Wednesday after class, I've been googling about something that really interest me A LOT. Never knew it's existence till recently. It scares the crap outta me to realise it now. And till today, my mind automatically thinks about it when I'm not thinking about something else. Every single day, I will be in the internet trying to look more information about it. I told some people about it and of course they don't believe it. haha I keep telling myself to not believe it and telling people I don't believe it, but I think I'm believing it more and more wtf. Worse part is I am actually afraid of all these kinda stuff but how come I'm drawn to find out more about it and reading about it? Grr.
Curiousity kills.
xoxo.
9:58 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2010
♥ World Cup 2010
Yay! World Cup is here!
No, I'm not excited about it.. Just cheering for fun.. I'm not into football, but into the players.. hehe
Kaka from Brazil.. Saying his name out is like kinda laughing out loud "kakaka" -.- He plays for Brazil and he got that cute boy-ish face (: I loved him during the last World Cup.
Ok the next one is not my cup of tea but my cousin insist I put him up here... Hidetoshi Nakata, who plays for Japan.. And she requested to put a picture of him in his CKs..
She thinks he is damn hot.. I think four years ago, I did thought he was hot haha but not now.. I don't even know what I was thinking four years ago!
Next is Frank Lam pa.. rd.. He is not best looking one but he is one of the good looking ones and I've seen a few girls drooling over him..
Steven Gerrard, the captain for England I think.. Quite good looking but he looks lost sometimes.. Especially this photo of him..
One thing that is missing from 2010 world cup is.....
David Beckham.
I feel so lost without him in World Cup.. It's like going for a Jay Chou concert without his piano, or playing football without the ball.. I know I don't make sense here but like I said, I'm not in to football, but the players.. (:
I can find DB pictures in many different poses other than the players above.. Looking smoking hot with his half naked tattoo body while being bald!
With clothes and hair on!
Sizzling hot, suit up!
Last but not least, with his underwear on LOL (Personally, I prefer men with boxers) I don't think you can find it in Lampard or Gerrard while looking hot like him.
Ok I think I should stop.. Been googling DB pictures for too long.. So since all the football players I like are from England, I think I'm gonna support England for this World Cup 2010 just for fun! Maybe Argentina as well since they're good right? I even got an assignment about this year's World Cup and my task is to predict who is winning this year wtf. Signing off as an England fan!
xoxo!
3:11 PM
Friday, June 11, 2010
♥ Be Stupid
Found some interesting ads by Diesel.. Some quite true, some are just wtf? Here are some of it..
I like the last quote most. Smart critiques, stupid creates. I know some people like that thinking that they are like oh-so-mighty smart and whatever that comes out from their mouth is something brilliant. Please. Just because you watch Discovery Channel more than me does not make you all that..
I was reading some of the comments (or rather critiques -.-)about this campaign ad..
"Stupid campaign, I'm serious"
"Strong Ideas, Gorgeous"
"Smart Don't Buy Diesel, Stupid Do"
"Love it, nice humour"
"If only they didn't use sweatshops"
wtf. Most companies uses sweatshops and it's everywhere!
Nike, Disney, Guess?, The Gap, Banana Republic, Old Navy, Tommy Hilfiger, Reebok, Levi Straus, Liz Caliborne, Ralph Lauren, Mattel, Wal-Mart are all using sweatshops!
I know many people are against sweatshops because workers are made to work long hours with insufficient pay, tortured, and are working in dangerous conditions. But I believe there are benefits of sweatshops. I mean these workers are willing to work in sweatshops because they rather work there than being pushed to be a prostitute. Unemployment rates dropped significantly in countries like Bangladesh and Nepal.. Ok I don't think I want to say more here just in case there are some people who are against sweatshops... I'm not supporting sweatshops either but I just believe it can be improved.
If you are against sweatshops then don't buy the brands I just mention or don't even go shopping! Cos there are more brands than that who uses sweatshops!
Bye!
12:46 AM
Thursday, June 10, 2010
♥ How Far and How Long
Have you tried waiting for something to happen but to no avail, it seems like it's not happening or it will or might never happen? What are the probabilities of that something to happen? (using the word "probabilities" because I just learned it from Stats class today ^^)
What do you do? Do you wait? Or do you move on? Do you convince yourself to be patient?
What if you have crossed the patience line? Do you still continue to be patient? Or you quit?
OR you close one eye and wait for a sign?
hmmm. xoxo.
3:25 PM
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
♥ This Week, Not So Bad Afterall
This week has been a "so far so good" week for me.. And hope it stays this way... Unless it wanna get better then go ahead! I want nothing worse than this week..
On Monday, Kwan Hoong asked whether we should go for lunch and collect out IELTS.. Was quite nervous to collect it.. Freaking scared to take results.. Sigh. So many what ifs and there's like tonnes of butterflies flying around my stomach.. As usual in SS15 it's difficult to get parking so he doubled park and we took turns to take the results. When I got upstairs to collect it, the Indian lady gave me the result paper.. I quickly grabbed it and folded it into half... Then dengan perlahan-lahan, pulling down the paper to reveal the results.. Like playing blackjack or something -.-
I passed my IELTS! So wanna show to Miss Chitra but she's not working anymore in ADP..
And then on Tuesday which was today, had to collect my last Spring results.. wtf.. Result after result.. Just like American Idol haha
Not even ONE subject I was confident at.. Biology, Chemistry, Anthropology, and Business Ethics..
Science? Sooooo not my thing. Anthro = History? Sooooo not my thing. Business ETHICS? Dot dot dot.. This made me realise I'm not good at any of these subjects nor interested in them. But how come I am studying them? Sigh. Which also made me realise what am I gonna do after I graduate end of this year? Where should I work? What do I like to do? Ok, I shall save this for some other time..
But TGIP!! (Thank God I Passed) hehehe
Passing subjects makes me happy,so I would know that I don't need to retake any of it and I am slowly moving forward to the finishing line of college life. I would start thinking about working life again when I am almost there..
I know it will be a tough start working for the first few months because I will not earn much but I just cannot wait to earn my own money so I can do whatever I want with the money and I don't have to see people's face always showing off that they have money. Sometimes it's true.. Money equals power and when they have the power, they tend to forget about the every other thing that is more important.
So since money can do the talking, then let the money do it.
xoxo.
10:38 PM
Sunday, June 6, 2010
♥ MayBreak 2010
Wow, this was on Save as Draft for weeks I think.. Supposed to finish writing this post but classes started and did not have time to finish it..
So anywayssss, this is it! LOL
Went to Kuantan for 3days 2nights trip with Vermo. It was a really budget to the max trip because we were poor to the max haha we stayed in Vistana Hotel and boy the toilet stinks to the max.
Oh, now I remember a funny story when we arrived at the hotel. HAHAHAH thinking about it makes me wanna laugh out really loud! When we arrived at the hotel, the bellboy was being polite and asked us to put our luggages on to his trusty trolley so he could bring it up for us. So we put the bags down and he brought the bags up to our room. When we reach inside the room, the bellboy carried our bags up from the trolley and put in our room and he was like hanging in our room, hesitating, telling us everything is there etc etc, he stoned a while, said thank you, then he walked out of our room.
So why he did that? Vermo then said OMG was he expecting tips? We're just students.. ahahahahaha omfg super funny! I don't really know how it works though but I think he was expecting tips from us that's why he looked like he did not want to leave just yet.. hahahaha usually when I stay in hotels is with my parents and all, and whether they give them tips or not I really don't know.. So embarrassing! Reminded me of Home Alone 2.. Even Kevin gave the bellboy a chewing gum! -.-
Imagine staying there for 3 days and the fact that you need to face the bellboy......
After settling down, we went to visit my grandma a while.. Pass her some stuff and yet again she was going to have a mah jong session.. It never fails.. Her mah jong sessions are always 12.30pm to 5.45pm.
Then we head to the mini zoo to see mini animals.. -.- There were less than 10 animals around, they all look tiny and malnourished, sick, and bored..
This lil black bear has been around since I last came to Kuantan which was about years ago. I don't know is this the max they can grow... hmm... We saw a peacock, and loads of monkeys walking freely.
The next day, we were so pumped up to conquer Panaroma Hill.. Woke up at 4am I think, got ready, and off to the hill. It was a pretty scary road.. Darkness and no ending straight road.. After an hour we finally reached. I did not take any pictures at all because it was so tiring to hike up the hill... We did not have proper hiking gears at all.. We were wearing slippers! I did not think it was this tough.. hmm.. Shall conquer it the next time?
This was taken halfway up the hill.. We could see the clouds and everything but not the top yet to see the sunrise. Sigh.
Went back to the hotel, ate breakfast, bathe and slept till evening!! Then off to the beach! (:
I don't know why/how my pictures turned out so.....sand-y? And what a coincidence since I'm at the beach? hmm..
We played the kite! Love kites! The wind was so strong, in one second the kite was up!
I could lie at the beach and sleep till someone wake me up.. The sun was hiding, wind blowing, and no noise pollution from the people around.. Ahh, serenity...
Pictures are all up on FB so kinda lazy to post it up here.. hehe
Definitely a short and quiet trip but Vermo, wait till I'm working first ok.. Save some money then we go on a proper holiday lol
xoxo.
8:14 PM
Friday, June 4, 2010
♥ I Is Tired
I am so bloody tired right now.. My eyes could barely open at this very second..... but yet I must write how I am feeling today because I never had a whole full day class before in my entire life and I feel like dying. OMG how am I gonna work next time? And my full day class is ONLY ONCE A WEEK wtf and this week is the FIRST WEEK! I sound like a weakling haha
One of the reason I feel so tired is because on Wednesday, I was summoned by the great lecturer to do a presentation the very next morning. FML or not.. Plus I had to find video about Christopher Columbus whom I barely knew.... -.-
Went home started reading the rm87 text book that I had to buy right after class. By evening, started looking for videos and found quite a perfect one. Downloaded it. Completed. Opening it in the folder..... FAIL.... Windows restarting..... Please update your Windows..... Windows restarting.... Please update your windows.... wtfwtf ok I updated my windows but no it did not help.. Because I put the video on my desktop. So again, Windows restarting... Please update your windows..... And it went on for about 60 over times.. Die. Panic mode ON. Called the so-called Great One, he also went wtf wtf don't know what's going on. Called Doug and conclusion was to bring it over to him to reformat again. Sigh. Stupid laptop.
It must fail me during my critical moment of life and death of my future.
Sigh.
Did I mention, the lecturer called me to ask me meet her up at 8 in the morning? zzz. Had to face the jam... yadayadayada.
Yet again, another bad week for me.
1. Argued with mum and she's not talking with me now. Whatever. I still think it's not my fault.
2. Presentation on the first week second day of class.
3. My poor and SAME toe got blood clogged again cos I hit my toe, again. wtf. The new nail have not even grow properly yet!
4. Some little things has changed in parts of my life but I hope it is for the best because little things can create bigger things.
5. My laptop failed me, again.
6. Affecting my mood because it is the TIME of the month *screams*
7. Daniel Wu is not divorced yet.
I need a miracle or something. Sobs.
xoxo?
12:25 AM
